A Working Girl's Pair of Pants

GREs

2009-11-21T06:41:56Z

Complete! Done!

YEAH!!!!

Shipping the books off to a friend who might take them next. Good riddance! LOL!

Next: Apply for Grad school!

Coolness!

Article on brutality/gendercide against Women

2009-08-22T03:40:25Z

Below is an article in the New York Times on how we can make this world better: By saving the women of societies that looks down upon them to the point of brutalizing, enslaving, and marginalizing their worth to below that of cattle.

http://www.nytimes.com/2009/08/23/magazine/23Women-t.html?pagewanted=1&_r=1&em

Which is ridiculous, because the last time I checked, men were born from women. That whole Adam's rib thing, not that I'm marginalizing the importance of religion for many, many people, is the male way of starting a story with a skill that gender obviously lack the ability to accomplish: Reproduce.

India/Japan, I have no pity for you population/younger generation problems. Look down on women without science advancing far enough not to need a womb to generate the next generation... well, why not just shot yourself in the head now.

I savored the part where they said that the more equal a society is, the less religiously fanatic it is. Well, men always enjoyed wars. There's a big surprise.

There's a lot of pretty common sense things in there, but it's always good to share the obvious with people who never thinks about it...

To this day, I am still baffled on how some men treat and view women as sin and dirt and nothing, when everyone they've ever known came from a mother, and their children come from mothers, and they exist because of their mothers...

So, degrading one's origins wasn't enough. We must have come from the rib of Adam! No, idiot, you came from a womb. If the rib thing worked so well, why did God not duplicate that?

N/m, let's not get into a bible debate. That book will never make sense to me outside of a fictional fantasy with good literary inspiration... some moral insights. Lots of brutality, and quite a bit against women (infidels, and well, any females or non-believers). Nope, can't see myself supporting that book.

Okay, stopping while I'm ahead. Read the article. Absolutely worthy of 9 pages, because this has been an article long in the making. After all, until now, it hasn't really made it far in the news.

Support!

Vacation

2008-04-11T14:17:01Z

Celebrated my birthday on Tuesday with some fun times. Of course, I had Japanese class that night, but it's the same thing as fun times because Noriko-sensei is really fun to hang-out with and so is the rest of the class, which is all 2 other people! So I'm glad I took the opportunity to learn a new language... though I may have scared off an old student because... well, I study my butt off. He could have just not liked me or something, but who knows with people these days. Apparently I seemed too advanced to him, and some people just don't like being reminded of what they don't do.

Taking Bikram yoga these days. Apparently, it doesn't make it easier to lose weight, alone. However, my body's been in sleepy mode all week. Hmm... but it's pretty cool and I do feel sore, so something's happening to the body. Other than that, I think I need to take up spinning to lose this horrid weight that's been with me most of my life. Excess poundage is like excess baggage: You always end up regretting that you have it.

I've been pretty much, these days, studying and working, if I'm not exercising my butt off. It's strange that my will has grown stronger, with my acknowledgment of this thing called "responsibilities". It shouldn't be that surprising to me that my free time is shrinking, along with my writing time. But I am surprised whenever I think about how long it's been since I've written anything, thought it's also because I'm actually making conscious decisions to go study in a bookstore where my laptop and desktop can't elude me from my study time. Bookstores, apparently, are better studying grounds than libraries because it's nosier so I can study my Japanese there, saying those phrases outloud. Or, learn my vocab, reciting it outloud. I may seem like a nut, talking to myself to the other patrons, but they're not paying for my exam or getting me into grad school or even downloading information into my brain... so for all I care, they can go on minding their own business.

Yet, I never thought I'd come close to abjuring writing in general because of it being a distraction from my goals. Stranger things have happened, I guess.

I think I raise eyebrows from the employees there since I can study for 8-9 hrs before I come close to finishing what I need to on weekends and on weeknights, I'm there till closing studying. See, when I'm not being forced to do these things by school or parents apparently I have a knack for wanting to do it to myself more so without all that "expectations" or "pressure". Go figure, I become a willing nerd after graduation.

I'm going to be watching Sex and the City with the girls tonight. I'm bringing the chocolate truffles - and I wonder why I never lose the weight. Anyway, it's my last bit of fun with coworkers before going off to vacation. We're pretty much leaving first thing in the morning on Saturday. I'm looking forward to alchol and SATC. I think it'll add to the entertainment factory...

In other news:

Yup. That's right. I'm going on vacation tomorrow for a week. So, if I seem even more internet dead than usual, I'm at Banff, hiking my little heart out and hoping no bears will find me a delicious afternoon snack and eat me in the process. I might also end up studying, but that's the growing nerd in me speaking and I don't expect too much of myself during the vacation but it might still end up happening... In fact, I think there's a huge chance of it happening.

Hope the rest of the week is filled with eventful things for everyone.

Much love,
blue

P.S. If you want to check out my growing book list, bjfactory has it. And that Japanese site ad on the right hand side below the list... yes, I'm really learning Japanese this year and yes, I'm really using that site as an aid. If you are too and looking for aid in your Japanese quest, check the site out. There's a 7 day free trial thingy too.

Good luck to you, brave language learning person, you.

Grandma, what big teeth you have...

2007-12-28T07:35:29Z

I imagine now, that when Little Red Riding Hood got to Grandma's house and found a wolf in Grandma's bed - aside from sudden fright - there was probably a great sense of betrayal. Well, I think I'm experience a bit of both, and a lot of anger. I think this is the first time in my life where just feeling someone's presence in the room utterly disgusts me.

Good things that came out of this:

1. I realized my Dad, no matter how many arguments we had, or how many times we fought, or how many hurtful things we've said to each other... he still loves me. I still love him. He is 1000 times better than Grandma. So, I patched things up with him and now we talk to each other like civilized people. Thanks Grandma! Before you, I always just thought cousin X was a horrible bully, after you, I realized he is like evil cat in Cinderella, annoying but not the Heart of Evil.

2. I don't think my mom has ever been this angry in her life - that she can remember, since she's been away from Grandma since she's 16. Now she doesn't feel like she owes the old witch anything and she's finally less passive-patient-saint, and more human being... almost a bit to much for me to take it all in, but at least she's learning a little bit more about getting angry and arguing when people try to take advantage of her. Unfortunately, I now see why she's so lax about that old ex-boss of hers who was a dick... her mother was worse, and the worse thing was, it was her own mother who was playing the role of "wicked step-mother". Can't even pretend not to be related to Heart of Evil.

3. I now want to study and clean around the house. After meeting such a useless human being - who can't cook, cut, wash dishes, or do laundry - and can do nothing but brag about how she's older than me and knows more than I do... I realized lacking the skills to use my brain and my hands is not a situation I'd ever want to be in. So, I have new appreciation on keeping my knowledge up-to-date, and working around the house after working at work. I seriously don't want to be 80 years old and don't have a clue how to boil water without spilling it onto the stove... hell, I don't want to be 80 years old and not know how to boil an egg! (And I certainly don't want to be 80, telling my granddaughter to wash my dirty ass clothes because I have no idea how to soap and water shit. Much less brag about my non-existent dish-washing skills, when in reality, everyone got to wash the dishes again because it's so damn dirty even when it's now on the dish rack, drying.)

4. Spur me to be a decent human being. Nothing makes you want to be less wicked than one who laughs like Snow White's wicked step-mom in old-woman, poison mode. Except she's related to me. Other than that, all lotions, mouth-wash, and bathroom utilities have come under questioning when they all start exhibiting odors that do not belong to what they previously smelled like, and start to look a little less than what they previously looked like... did I mention the fact that my Grandma can stay in the bathroom for longer than 3 hours?

5. Personal hygiene have taken to new levels of awareness since Grandma does not wash herself more than (at most) once a week. How the hell does she stay in the bathroom for longer than 3 hours without washing herself? (Did I mention I don't even keep the floss I use at home anymore?) At one point I was having 2 showers a day, partially due to gym going, and partially due to the fact that I am one of the few things in my house that I can clean and feel clean about - that have rarely been touched or influenced by Grandma.

6. Gym is my new best friend. Not only am I home less, but it encourages a life style in which I would not look like Grandma at 80. With her diet of sugar and more sugar - and the fact she eats the same amount of food that is consumed by my mom AND myself - she still wonders why she looks the way she does now. Due to her horrid sleeping patterns - a.k.a. 5-6AM in the morning - to which she vigorously denies unless you wake her at 8 in the morning (than it's "whine...whine...I just went to bed at 5!"), I realized that I should never stay up too late again. Except when it ticks her off because she can't do whatever she wants earlier because we're still up and she can't do shit she shouldn't when we can look at her while she's doing it. We might argue and stop her! Oh my god, what a concept! Yet, she never apologizes when you actually catch her... she'll lie and be completely obstinate...like a spoiled 80 year old child... except uglier, smellier, and more likely to break your stuff (my laptop's mouse pad is a lot less responsive after she took a few trys at it... it's pretty much broke).

7. I've never eaten this much bad take-out since college. Cooking... I totally reclaimed my feelings and desires to cook again due to the fact that I can't do it in any amount of reasonable time considering I'd have to rewash all the stuff I want to use and make sure the food is edible from the fridge! Let's not talk about what she's done to my pots and pans... you know... with those expert cooking/washing skills of hers...(and she has some type of hep A/B/C/whichever... but who knows if she's contageous since she's decided, 50 years later, that she can share our utensils, despite not doing so elsewhere for 50 YEARS!)

8. I've never been truly rebellious in my life... but now I get to truly experience it! Very refreshing and new. You should do it at least once in your life!

Grandma, you laugh like a witch, you lie like a wolf-crier, and 13 days is just too damn long a time before you leave! I know it'll only get worse before she's on the plane and finally, out of my life, FOR GOOD! (YEAH!!!!!!!!!)

Like I said to my Father on the phone, after she complained multiple times - she's still on the phone with her Dad?: "She's not a human being, she's a beast!"

Little Red Riding Hood, you had it good. At least your beast was a wolf, I'm actually related to mine and she didn't eat my grandma... she IS my Grandma!

;_;

Well, I guess I got it good since my parents are awesome! Can't have it all be perfect. At least this relative is in another country! Though I can't promise that I won't throw her luggage out of the house before her 13 days are up!!

(Well, technically 12 now. God! As Madonna famously sung: "Time goes by... so slowly")

Cold war is now going off in the house-hold... except worse...

2007-10-30T02:01:28Z

So, my grandmother came to visit us from China. For most people this may be a moment of rejoicing, reunions, and re-something sentimental...

Unfortunately, not my grandmother since she is the most passive-aggressive, lying, and complicated persone ever.

1. She kept my mom and me up till midnight (despite the fact that we need to sleep at 9-10PM since we need to get up; 5:50AM for me and 7:00AM my Mom) by opening the windows of our apartment (when it's like 0 degrees outside!) saying she needs fresh air... And we specifically told her not to. My mom went around the apartment closing all the windows... and my grandmother has this habit of putting a chair in front of her own door because she's afraid of the burglers, but she's okay with opening the windows outside of her room! >P (She's been doing it since she got here for 3 days in a row and my mom gets sick when she doesn't get enough sleep! Not only that, she keep trying to convince us that the house should be 15 degrees Celsius! And we were arguing about how truly freakin' cold it is if the house was actually 15 degrees... since she thinks that 20 degrees C/72 degrees F is too high. But since she keep opening windows, I foresee the heating bill go up further.)

2. She took all the left-over rice we cooked, and left it out in the open. Now, the rice we were going to use for tomorrow's completely dry and we won't be able to use it tomorrow.

3. She used the cutting board we used to cut bagels and fruits for meat and veggies... because "plastic" to her is cheaper than "wood". -_-;;

4. She is still going on about turning off the heater. God! GWARG!!

5. She has liver disease, but she kept saying it's not "contagious" and try to make us share our utensils with her. She also lied that my aunt shared with her... does she want to give it to someone and just be "sorry" about it?!

6. She cut the power to my computer while it was still on. I come home to a computer with corrupted files. Thank god it was Debian/Linux.. Windows would have given me pissy blue-screens to haunt me for sure!

She's here for 2 more months... I don't know how we're going to survive... or our apartment and our possessions.....

God, I hope I still love grandma by the end of these ordeals!

;_;

The bump becomes a hill becomes a path to a mountain into a snowstorm...

2007-10-13T04:27:35Z

Two straight weeks of non-stop downloading, installing and a million other things...

So, I've finally got fed up with Windows (and its constant - might I say, rather disturbing - error messages about memory errors, and I am working now with a Linux/Unix environment at work, so I decide to install Debian (a version of Linux) onto my computer. I wanted it to be duel-boot, but since, at the time, I did not have a nifty software (like Partition Magic), I tried to rely on Debian to partition my drive (after hours of pouring over which Linux system to install and how the hell to do it). Bad idea.

I did backup my stuff on Windows, so I wasn't crying a river when it poofed out of existance on my computer. So, I sighed, shrugged and went on installing Debian. Believe me, before it erased Windows from the face of my laptop, it coughed and balked as I tried to partition it manually. I finally got frustrated and let it do its own thing, which led to Window's demise, and it installed itself without a hitch.

Great. I spend the next three days updating it and putting the things I wanted on. Okay, the mouse is slow as hell and changing the mouse properties did zip. I found an online help forum for it and programmed the solution (a proud day in my existance, despite it not being very programmy...) and yes, the keyboard inputs weren't all being read, but I fixed that too. There was only Banshee that will upload music to my iPod, I can live and I found the damn software to do it! I even found an openVeoh to combat the fact that veoh just updated their program but just the Windows and Mac version - though it took forever to figure out how to get it running without errors when I had to download things that was not already contained in the debian package - crash course on packages and apt-get and a crash review on C. Did I mention that after getting it to work on my computer I realized it wasn't going to work, period, in the downloading department due to a Mozilla/Firefox/Debian/IceWeasel dispute on freeware. And the fact that vget, the terminal command's fun messiness since Veoh's upgrade completely made the old code not very happy or compatible? I even figured out how to install on Debian, and no, it's not like Windows where you click and everything runs on its own. Wine was okay but it is still a work in progress and the one program I tried on it twitched and gave very weird out-put. I could live with all those flaws, but I just could not live with the fact that my 250 GB external harddrive no longer was writeable (and I was not about to reformat 200 GB of data just so Debian would recognize it for what it was - a readable AND writeable external harddrive!).

So, after going about looking up instructions on how to duel-install from Linux a Windows platform, I tried it again... admist many warnings, I backed up what I could and then tried anyway. I mean, 250 GB of read-only. I was just not ready for that.

And, of course, the attempt crashed and burned.

There goes Debian.

;_;

It took 1 entire day to find a working version of Windows in my house that had a code attached to it. Eight (to ten) frustrating installs later, it finally came on without a hitch. And to install everything else, I had to stay up to do it! The next day was spent getting Partition Magic (thanks to the fantastic generosity of a coworker) to partition my disk and get Debian on again. When that finally worked, another day passed. Seriously, the back and forth of partitioning the drive correctly was a pain in the ass. Five partitions later, and god knows how many "active swap not found" warnings, the duel boot finally worked!!!!

Yes, it took two frustrating weeks of nothing but install, but it works!

I sighed in relief.

Then, there's configuring Windows. Like the fact that there was no sound and I had to INSTALL the hardware, manually! What the hell is wrong with this machine?! I think it had something to do with the fact that I installed this packet that I thought was the package of software that came with my laptop but it claims to be Toshiba and mine's a Compaq. This is what happens when, at one time, there had been more computers in the house than people! -_-;; Sigh.

Anywho, it's finally done! I can connect online... let's not even go there about the whole Firestarter and the wall that closed down my connection. It took me awhile to realize that it was my firewall that was preventing me from going online and another while to figure out how to fix it. I have yet to figure out fully how that works but that's just another crash review into networking, which I never really used practically.

More reading ahead.

Let's not even talk about the reading I have to do for work!

If you're wondering why I'm like practically on hiatus the last two months, I hope this gives a good idea of the type of computer problems I've been having. It's not been pretty but I think the roughest parts are over, at least I hope so. But that's my report on the now.

I so learned my lesson concerning backing up my stuff, especially my writings. Seriously, it's just not fun having to rewrite anything from scratch and memories. It is just not a pretty thing to witness or be a part of.

But YEAH! My computer finally works now!

(This probably won't last as my grandmother is coming to visit and I have no doubt that she'll break something. And guess whose laptop she's using to connect online when she's here? Yeah. I'm looking forward to that Apple computer I may be getting for Christmas.)

:D

Back! Sort of...

2007-09-30T02:37:02Z

Alright! My computer is no longer a sack of deathness wherein things can be looked up. I am seriously considering switching to Linux since work is making me use Unix anyway. But outside of that lost quite a bit of documents which I'm working to rewrite...

But between new job and learning new job stuff and preparing for certification exams, I don't have much time. Good news is that I am more than halfway through FFXII due to complete death of computer... nothing better to do and it kept certain tendencies of rage to subside to lackadasical uncaring. But hey, I'm sorta back!

Have little time to be online but it's going in the right direction!

My mom was really sick today, so I don't have much time but to just give the heads up that I'm back. Off to take care of her..

Poor poor woman.

A brief intense hiatus wherein blue will get her visa and job and school somehow all done and over

2007-08-20T05:17:58Z

Okay, I know, I have been completely MISSING (if anyone noticed, that is!) for the last five days. I actually left Tuesday evening for Toronto, which was a 1 day and 23 hr trip that became a 2 day and 7 hr trip from where I now live, by bus. I had less than 12 hrs to get everything I left there sorted and repacked and look at the places that I will probably never visit again, as it is a chapter of my life that I was closing, for good!

I had this great plan to eat my heart out, as anyone who knows me knows that my existence revolves around food and then like... books and stuff comes after. But, of course, my breakfast at Timmy's gives me food poisoning. Yes, I did consider murder but at the time I wasn't sure if it was the fried rice I just had an hour before or the Timmy's food, so I had to toss my fab tai rice ;_; and forgo eating anything else should I body vomit my stomach with everything else. Thanks, but no thanks.

To console my spirits which fell into the pits of despair, which, I kid you not, it did. (No, I do not exaggerate that food is really the center of my universe...) I forlornly wondered the mall and wondered if I shall ever be happy again. My one working bank machine was now off-limits and I was saddened to see that I could no longer withdraw money. So, I wondered...

Aimlessly...

Till, I thought, hell with it, I'm going to buy myself something. It turned out that something was a pair of 120 dollar, leather pumps. Yes, it was overpriced... but they were comfy and pretty and I was no longer forlorn! (And did I mention I just found out that I got my tax returned! Thank, freakin' GOD!)

Anyway, then I bought myself a pair of new yoga pants, because my old sweats that were mismatched at the legs needed to go (people were starting to stare at my over-big tee and my unfashionable pants... and probably snickering behind my back. I wouldn't blame them but it didn't make me any happier, it just dampened my mood.) So after yoga pants, I threw out the ratty t-shirt I had already discarded - it had small holes that foretold its doom long before the trip - and my dryer-slayed pants into the garbage. Good riddance, it was where they belonged! Then I was semi-cute again and swung around the mall, looking for more things to buy. But, alas, the expensive clothing store I went to had nothing I wanted - but I did dampen the mood of that over-enthusiastic, and rather too complimentary sales girl, who was too agreeable to actually be sincere (despite the fact that, yes, I am rather cute in everything I try on, but really, she was trying too hard to please and her smile was just a little fake). Dude, I may be in tees and yoga pants, but who in their right mind would wear nice clothes when they knew they were in another bout of bus travels for almost two-days with unwashed self and unwashed other bodies?! Granted, I did BEG a shower from my old landlord so I will not disgust you with my unwashed self that wasn't really unwashed by then...

Anyways.

Let's just say a lot of sales people ignored me, despite the fact that I: a) Have more money than the stupid teens that cart around their PARENT'S credit cards and b) Was looking to buy something. In the end I decided, screw their snobby attitudes. If I wanted to buy expansive ass jeans over 100 bucks, I'm doing it in NYC where people with snobbish attitudes have a bit more reason than a mall on the edges of Toronto. And hell, I probably wouldn't spend money in NYC if that were the case, but at least I know their clients actually pay them more to actually have a freakin' attitude to begin with! And, hey, no taxes where I live...

So I bit my thumb at them and went on my way with my 120 dollar shoes that were without beautiful pants for a partner or beautiful top for a friend, but I'll have more money to spend next time I go to a city anyway, so screw you Yorkdale mall! I only buy from nice sales people who disregard whether or not I walk around with a hiking back pack and t-shirt and yoga-pants and hair still wet from shower. I will spend my money on them who are nice than you who are fake! BEEOTCH!

Okay.

Just wanted to get that out of my system.

Oh, and I met five different people for the five nights I was gone. Weird! And I bought and finished Stardust on the bus ride home and reread The Prophet which was as beautiful as the first time I read it... if not more so now. Strange, I bought six things for the six days I was gone.... Huh.

Anywho, symbolisms aside, it was a great trip. Well, food poisoning aside, it was a great trip. And, I finally got a nice pair of comfy pumps to take me to great places. Shoes after all are the homes for your feet ;)

This week is: Speak to lawyer, go to orientation, hand in needed documents, visit border and get visa week. So, yes, more travels, more phone calls, more hectic-ness... and next Monday, if all things work out, there is this thing called Work! If not, there's this thing called school!

Which ever one works out. Most likely work. If all else fails, school.

I don't know how I do it either.

And I'm BACK!

Sort of.

More to come....

TBC.

Ciao, my friends.

YES! And change is HERE!

2007-08-10T21:21:49Z

Okay, I have to apologize for really not being very active the last two weeks like I thought I would be. The fact is I've been going through an interview process and trying to clear up a UPS issue and also figure out what classes I want to take at the university.

Well, I got my verbal offer today! CHIYA! After a rush of hard ass studying and reference calling and trying to track down past friends and managers, I got it!

I'm starting work, tentatively at the end of the month and I am so excited!

YEAH!!!!!!!!

Okay, anyway, good news aside, I am still editing Sheep and I finally solidified my ideas on key characters in an epic I've been working on FOREVER that's only available right now on my LJ called Sins of the Universe. I am also loving Avatar - I'm minimizing the obsessiveness by watching 3 episodes/day and probably, when I'm done, I'll preorder Season 3 on amazon.com because... I WANT IT!!!

Anyway, I will probably be really busy the next few months, especially with my grandmother visiting from China around October, and my GREs coming up around that time too! So if you don't see me as much that's why. But I'll TRY really, really hard to write a little more consistently!

Much love!! CHIYA!!!!!

blue

Airbender Made Me Like Something Nickelodeon & I NEVER Thought Would Happen In A Million Years!

2007-08-02T06:05:12Z

OH MY GOD!

LMAO!!!

This is such a great series! And I'm really enjoying myself! The characters, the humor, the story, everything! And I hate Nickelodeon. I only got up to season 2... I need 3! How will I be able to watch season 4 without 3?!

;_;

Cruel fates, show me a light!

In other news, I am on the edge of my seat, waiting for the next translations to be done for Darker Than Black which is shaping up to be a very, very interesting anime. However, with about 10 episodes left, I don't think they will explain everything in this season. Damn them!

I'm looking for the new season of Ghost Hunt though. I heard there's a second one and I WANT TO SEE IT!!!

I did just finish Gakuen Alice which was surprisingly good, cute, and rather cliche. But hey, I teared a lot at the friendship scenes (I'm a big whimp). Anywho, cute but now I want to read the manga to see how it really ended! Now GA deserves a second season!

More news to come but a lot of studying to do. I'm working my way through editing chapter 2 of When All The Good Angels Sleep and it's pretty much the only thing I'm working on. Granted, I am also working on a Makoto fic. Only thing is... it's a great idea that is refusing to start... or confused on where to start. Damn it!

Why won't you work with me, Mako-chan?

;_;

Slinks to her corner

Anime Anime ANIME!!!!

2007-08-01T05:09:12Z

Stole from heavenly_pearl to procrastinate when I really REALLY shouldn't.

BEGINNING

1. What was the series that got you into anime?
Sailor Moon. After trying to catch the damn show passed the commercials, my then best friend and I finally got together. She'd been raving about DBZ for a bit but SM was my first.

2. How old were you when you first got into anime?
I'm pretty sure I was 13, but I could've been 12.

3. How many years has it been since then?
Well, it's a decade. It'll be passed a decade after this year is over :D

4. About how expensive was anime/manga then?
For my age, it was expansive. That is why I didn't buy any until I was much older and borrowed and copied tapes when I could from friends.

5. Did someone introduce you to anime, or did you discover it on your own?
Discovered on my own, watched it with friends... I guess I combination. I didn't really get into it until I was in high school.

AUDITORY

6. Who is your favorite seiyuu?
Umm... I don't really have one...

7. Who is your favorite voice actor/actress?
I really don't have one for this.

8. Which series has the best dub?
Considering the only dubbed I watched was Sailor Moon and Eva.. I'm going to go with SM.

9. How about the worst dub?
Hands down, Eva. Shinji's voice in it was SO annoying! To this day, I can pick that voice out and hate it.

10. What are some of your favorite anime opening songs?
Hmm... I'm sure I have a lot... I'll just name the series since I can't go and look them all up ^_^;;
- Nana
- Darker Than Black
- Trinity Blood
- Azumanga Daioh
- Card Captor Sakura
- Noir
- Paradise Kiss
- Ai Yori Aoshi

11. Ending songs?
- Mai HiME
- Basilisk
- Paradise Kiss
- Juuni Kokki
- RahXephon
- Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien

12. How often do you get introduced to new bands because of anime OPs/EDs?
Very, very rarely. If ever.

VISUAL

13. Which series has the best animation?
- Read or Die OVA
- Mushishi
- Ouran High School Host Club (alright... not THE BEST, but the bishies dazzled me too much with their good looks... hides bribery pictures from Kyouya)
- Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya

14. The worst?
Tenjou Tenge, hands down... very badly translated art from manga which was a master piece - granted a rather ecchi master piece, but it was painful to watch what they did to it...

15. What was the first series that really impressed you with its animation?
Rurouni Kenshin OVA, but a lot of better ones came after it... and realistic art was never really my thing for anime

16. What one character do you think has a great overall design?
Mitsuki Hayase from Kimi ga Nozomu Eien who changed hair-styles and personalities throughout a rather short run show and literally grew up before my eyes.

17. What's one clichéd character design you hate?
A main heroine who is stupid but all the men around her loves her for her spunk and idiotic cheer anyway. I really hate a brainless main character whose supposed spunk and total ignornace do a lot of damage and get a lot of people hurt and in trouble than any demonized secondary characters who are supposedly evil, and yet, everyone love so-and-so for unfathomable reasons and main character never pays for the mistakes they make, everyone else does, and no body think there's anything wrong with that...?! (Fushigi Yuugi I'm looking at you and all the shoujo spawns you have inspired.)

CONTENT

18. Which series had a plot twist which really took you by surprise or shocked you?
Mai-HiME, no doubt, surprised me the most. Just when I thought I had it all figured out, it blows up in my face with another twist. I'm so glad I watched it with the usual magic-girl expectations. It blew my socks off, it did.

19. Which series makes you cry?
... How long do you have? LOL! Okay:
- Mai HiME
- Kimi ga Nozomu Eien
- Basilisk (bawled like a baby, like 3 times in 3 different parts of the story)
- Kaleido Star (but just a little and they were mostly happy tears)
- X-1999 the movie (Arashi and Sorata's scene... they're my favorite! Nya!)
- Azumanga Daioh
- Read or Die OVA
- Rurouni Kenshin OVA
- Samurai Champloo

Dude, the list goes ON!

20. Which series makes you laugh most?
Kare Kano (Kareshi Kanojo no Jijo) or better known as His and Her Circumstances. Miyazawa... you kill me, you do! When she was fighting it out with Tsubasa... OH MY GOD!!!
And Dragon Half which, if anyone seen it, will attest to how funny it is and... I'm not surprised if the rumor that the animators were on drugs when they made the series were true. It's SO hilarious!

21. Which series totally confused you?
Boogie Pop Phantom... if you ever seen it, you'd understand

22. Which series creeped you out?
Elfen Lied. Gory as hell and that creeps me out.
One episode of Ghost Hunt managed to do this too... with more psychology.

23. Which series has the best ending?
Kimi ga Nozomu Eien - fantastic ending with closure for everyone
Basilisk - I was crying my eyes out but it was GOOD
Azumanga Daioh - really good ending too
Mushishi - just generally a fantastic anime
Read or Die OVA
Samurai Champloo
Cowboy Beebop

24. The worst?
Mai-HiME - still one of my favorite anime of all time but because it was so great all the way up to the end, the biggest let-down I've ever experienced.

25. Which completed series deserves a continuation?
Juuni Kokki - because it isn't OVER, damn it!
Kare Kano - I wouldn't mind seeing the rest of the manga actually animated since they cut it short
Rurouni Kenshin - if they'd ever animate the Revenge arc
Ghost Hunt - but I heard it's starting to come out...

26. What types of characters do you usually like?
Characters who are smart, great sense of humor - be it laugh out loud or witty sarcasm - with a lot of room for change and growth, and depth. Could be angsty but could be light. Just a generally good hearted person. I don't like them perfect and I do like them flawed, but I like to know that they're hard working and they try their best - not just say it but do it and consistently show it. (ex. Miyazawa Yukino, Nakajima Yoko, Haruno Sakura) I don't need them to be rocket scientists, those tend not to be my favorite characters, but I like them to be intelligent and try to overcome the ignorance they discover themselves having... instead of wallowing in it. I hate a wallower.

27. On average, do your favorite characters usually live or die?
Tend to live in the anime... tend to die in my fics.

28. Who is the best hero?
Yoko. Didn't want her destiny but accepted it and then embraced it.

29. Who is the worst Mary Sue?
Miaka. Fushigi Yuugi. 'Nough said.

30. What is your favorite anime movie?
The Cat Returns. Light hearted and filled with character growth.

31. What are your favorite genres of anime?
Female main character kicking ass... action/adventure, I guess

32. Is there a series you're embarrassed to like for any reason?
Naw.

33. Which series is so overrated it makes you want to puke?
Fushigi Yuugi.

PERVERSIONS & SUCH

34. What was the first hentai picture/video you saw?
Parts of La Blue Girl, I think. I don't really remember.

35. Is there any subcategory of hentai/yaoi/yuri that freaks you out?
Any time I catch characters shoving unmentionable objects up a woman's vigina makes me cringe. But most hentai makes me cringe, especially the ones that takes itself seriously...

36. What's the weirdest, most bizarre hentai/yaoi/yuri you've ever seen?
Bible Black. I think it scarred me for life.

37. Be honest... about how much anime porn do you have saved on your computer, you dirty perv?
I think I have a yaoi that I was curious about, but since it's the first one I've ever seen, I think it's pretty funny. But I'm probably deleting it soon. It's just taking up disk space.

38. Who's the best-looking male character?
Oh god! So many to chose from... I'm going to say Abel Nighroad from Trinity Blood. God, he's a hottie! Shin from Tenjou Tenge would have easily been the hottest if they didn't mess up his character design! GIR!

39. Who's the best-looking female character?
Hmm... this is hard! Oh, I know! Juri, Arisugawa Juri from Utena. sigh dreamily Juri-sama! I'd go gay for you!

40. What characteristic can a character have that will automatically make you interested in them?
Nobility of the heart. I guess in other words, integrity.

41. Who was your first anime crush, if you ever had one?
ARG! HARD! Kenshin. He was all girly and then he'd be all warrior like and feral... HOTNESS!

42. Who was your most SEVERE anime crush?
Don't actually have an anime crush... there's been ones that intrigued me... (is hard to impress) but right now I really like Herve from Red Garden. I can totally go for a man like that in real life... even though his type isn't really compatible with me ;_;

43. Did you ever send in fan art to an anime magazine?
Nope. Why would I when I got deviantart?

44. Was it horribly drawn?
Um. No.

45. Was it published?
Will this line of questioning end?

46. Which fandoms do you associate yourself with?
– Sailor Moon, Naruto, and for awhile there, Utena and Inuyasha... I've dabbled in Bleach too... hmm... but really just Sailor Moon and Naruto

47. Was your first anime convention your favorite?
Umm.. I worked my first anime convention, and really didn't do much even though everything was free for me because I worked it. I realized then that I could probably get more just sticking home an dl-ing new anime than go watch at conventions and that would have been my only purpose then... so I'm not really a convention person ^_^;;

48. Have you ever been teased/made fun of because you like anime?
If parents count.

49. Have you ever seriously learned something from anime?
Probably. Their stories, so I wouldn't be surprised if I did.

50. What pisses you off about anime fans in general, if anything?
I'm not really pissed at anyone but some do take it too seriously. I take it too seriously at times. Then I realize I'm getting super steamed over cartoons and judging people on imaginary characters... which tend to lead into a brief period where I melt into a puddle of goo called embarrassment. But hey, nothing wrong with being emotionally attached to created characters... that's what fandom is for, after all.

Incubation Is a Period of Gestation. Pain For the Uneducated.

2007-07-24T03:30:46Z

Thought I'd give out a few laughs for those Narutards. Hilarious little comic strips from deviant art. I put them in order so you don't have to >D Just remember left to right, we're not doing Japanese manga thingy... I'm so used to reading manga, sadly, that sometimes I'd catch myself going right to left from habit -_-;;

If Shikamaru and Kankuro were spanish dubbed!
What REALLY happened when Shikamaru was assigned as the Chuunin leader to Naruto, Neji, Chouji, and Kiba...
As the young boys journey through perilous difficulties to reach... part 1
The truth about penguins are revealed! .... part 2

Okay, this parts a series! Enjoy XD
Kankuro discover that laundry mix ups can be dangerous for everyone involved! (Sailor Temari bitch threats)
...and is a bit of a hacker, much to Temari's annoyance and Gaara's... well... he's disturbed, that much is true.
...which gets Shikamaru to go grieve to his girlfriend over AIM... but in the end, he got what every grieving man deserves...!
Kanky's punishment doesn't do him much in the way of helping though...
And we go into a game where men can truly communicate with... apparently not each other.
And we discover the TRUE reason why Kanky hates so much!
And of course, somebody has to go and get pregnant! Gaara steps up as the Kazekage. Team 10 laments.

Did you laugh? I hope you did. :D And here's a little of what Shika's kids would be like... if he had kids...
Kankuro visits his niece and nephew... no one knows who to feel sorry for but Kankuro is probably winning by a smidgen...

Unrelated:
Male bonding at its worst.
SasuSaku...Kankuro?! Crack!

Oh, almost forgot! doc_destructo, here's what Shikamaru would look like if he was Hokage... :D For that idea of yours... even if he's not going to be Hokage ;)

Urr... noting the hat-hair...literally

AH FUCKIN' SHITTY BEES WAX COCK SUCKIN' WHORE #$@$%#^!%!%!!!! And Why Is My LJ NC-17?

2007-07-18T04:48:56Z

I missed the writing challenge for NaruSaku at Heaven & Earth's site!

And I actually bothered to take the time to vote on the fucking words.

AH FUCK!

And my language has degenerated in to the vocab of a high school student. Great. Just great.

Hell YEAH! All That Smut Is Not Just Good To Read But GREAT To Post, BABY!!

2007-07-16T03:05:50Z

Mingle² - Free Online Dating

Yeah, baby, yeah! ^_^v

Crazy ass Beryl dream was spoken about at www.dotmoon.net (check).

Today was my mom's birthday, and I just want to say, Bozeman, your chinese restraunts need work! But the duck was actually pretty decent! ;_; I however weep for the good old days of NYC, Flushing, and Toronto. It's like living in a palace and then dropped into the tundra. It's very, very sad when white people run chinese restraunts and run it better than the chinese people down the road. And not even the best, most expansive chinese place on Main Street could compare to a cheap little hole on Toronto's bustling College St. And Toronto is nothing compared NYC.

Ah...

I miss my NYC.

Granted, Montana has its own charm. It's a great view no matter which way you look. ~~Minus the super volcano that will one day destroy the world~~ It's a great place to live!

Now, let me go back to my manga reading madness! MADNESS! I have a great multipart idea for Naruto's 30_deathfics and then I have to go and do at least one or two works on Makoto, no matter how much I've been dragging my feet...

sigh

And stupid GRE! GIR! Well, it is expanding my vocab and I am going to have better grasp of grammar... but DAMNIT!

There's a Fine Line Between What You Want to Hear & What You WANT to Hear. Sense-Making, No? Good!

2007-07-14T19:16:31Z

Find out your Harry Potter personality at LiquidGeneration!

I am speechless. Damnit, I knew I should have just picked "who needs magic, kick 'im where it hurts" but... but... Wizard Assassin sounded so cool!

:P

Harry, you're annoying. Why do I have to be like you?

Let's Be Honest My Taste's Not Your Taste & I Get It But For These Taste Buds That Was WAY Overblown

2007-07-14T04:02:54Z

Okay, I will probably get mauled by mad NaruSaku fans here, but I don't get what is so hot about Garden of Sanctuary. Great idea, true. I didn't like the execution. It felt like it was toeing melodrama and I didn't feel like I got a lot of Naruto in the fic. I got a lot of angst!Naruto, but that's not the Naruto I know. I didn't like the reasoning either. I can't see Naruto as the type who would let this go and not go down fighting it. I don't see Sakura letting him go like that and not go down fighting it. Hell, I can see Sakura pissed off enough to knock Naruto unconscious, if she had to do it dishonestly, she would, and become missing just to prevent this from happening at all.

It was okay, better than some of the other stuff out there, but it's not like fantabulous and everyone must read it and it's written in the most fabulous prose ever! Not that type of attitude, which was what I got the wind of when I went to read it - and was promptly disappointed. True, I'm very picky and some things that other people enjoy, I don't and vice-versa (ex. Harry Potter, never liked it, never will, and yes, damnit, I got to the fourth/fifth book, somewhere around there and didn't like a second of it. The fandom is hellish but some stuff I found more enjoyable then the books. Biggest example I could think off, but it's going off tangent.). Okay, but I don't get what's so great about it. I also don't get how it's better than Beautiful Day. No, doc_destructo, I'm not just using this opportunity to praise you. Some people honest thought Garden was better, but Beautiful had better prose and the characters were, well, more in character. I get that it's not everyone's cup of tea, and yeah, there were some execution in the story that could be better, but it's still better prose and character build-up and PROSE! Damnit! And Garden just didn't connect with ME as a reader, but Beautiful did. So, I guess this is very subjective, but I guess that's why I'm missing the point.

And, let me make sacrilege number 2, since we're on a roll today. Umm... Training on the job, what is it's appeal? I read up to the end of "volume 2" section. I don't find the characters particularly in character, and I don't like the style. I don't like the writing technique and had a hard time enjoying it. I felt like a lot was lost in the writing element of it, and I didn't like the fact that Naruto was no longer in Konoha. The reason I liked him so much was because he faced all his problems head on and he had a very clear view of where he was going. Training took away a huge part of that conflict, and yes there are more created in the aftermath but I thought that was a huge plot element that could have been more effectively utilised.

It's mostly the writing. In fact, I was so disappointed with the writing style and execution, and general idea of Garden that I've not read Medusa Javelin or Empyreal Paradox. Can someone give me a good reason to read those? Because I've clicked on it but every time I think about Garden, I just couldn't continue.

Without biting my head off, please.

Narutoverse is very fucked up & I thought Sailormoonverse had its moments but Naruto's on repeat x99

2007-07-14T01:07:16Z

Female Naruto?

Okay. I conceded that NaruSasu has its uber hot ass moments and they're both fucked up enough and lonely enough to do things to each other later in life ~~that might involve wild hot sex during sweaty training while they stripe~~....

drool

Is it getting hot in here?

Okay. Homoerotic undertones. I get it. Except that it's fanon because in reality both of them, since it's a shonen manga, are very very straight. Oh, I don't know. Sasuke might be bi, but he's revenge driven ~~so sexual orientation is really not on his list of to-knows~~.

I won't even touch on Uchihacest. That is just so wrong on so many different levels. Though, Itachi might do that to Sasuke just to torture him in a genjutsu, but I don't see Itachi debasing himself to that level just to screw with Sasuke's mind, at least not that way. I mean, Itachi has much more ammunition on Sasuke than to go down that path of wrongness that fangirls have treaded way too many times.

But let's get back on topic here. Female Naruto?! Okay. If you want to deal with the issue of homosexuality, I get it. Lots of angst, lots of hotness, lots of smutty fun. But, if you're going to be a homophobic and CHANGE the gender of a character, that's just going to far. It's like if I wrote Minako as a boy ~~she might enjoy that~~ but to do that so she could get together with Usagi? Seriously. Consider what you're doing. NaruSasu has already blown both characters actual personalities out of the waters, but female Naruto? Okay, why don't you just go with Sakura with blonde hair?

What don't like pink or Sakura. Then why the hell are you creating a new female character with her personality just looks like Naruto's sexy no Jutsu but acts like Sakura anyway?! Oh, wait, then you call her Naruto or Naruko or whatever the female versioned name that Naruto's name is now butchered to. And this is even worse than a pastey - where you cut off the heads of the characters and paste them on OOC characters - because at least they get the gender right. Naruto still has a dick and Sasuke too. I doubt either of them would like to lose it for your entertainment purposes. Especially after Naruto's reactions to Sai calling him dickless all the time, and then his reaction when Sai pointed out that "Oh, you actually have one."

And fangirls, there are a lot of shounen-ai manga out there. If you want to do shounen-ai, you can do it with characters who are actually gay! Like, try out reading Love Mode ~~drool~~ with its many gay characters for your gay wonderland of fun.

If you're going to write a NaruSasu, at least make them in character! Isn't that the point? Because if it isn't about getting the two together and you just want hot gay sex between two men, there are a lot of shounen-ai/yaoi smut manga out there for your viewing and writing pleasures. Leave the straight ones alone! GIR!

Now...

This did start me on this idea where Usagi gets reborn as a boy instead of a girl idea just to really mess with the Miracle Romance and Senshi thing....

I really like this idea. Kukuku!

What think you, Kerry? Usagi, as a boy. With Endymion as a man. It could be hot! Just imagine the possibilities then... Usagi/Minako/Rei thing except like... really weird triangles springing up...

I would love a chance to mess with that. Especially, imagine R season... hahaha! Chibiusa as the adopted daughter... Endymion/Pluto running amuck. Neo-King Selenity?

Yeah. Narutoverse is seriously twisting me. But this idea is growing on me.

Must Convert the World Into Adachi Lovers So I Can FINALLY Gush Like I've Never Gushed Before Damnit

2007-07-13T16:43:05Z

You Will Be an Unconventional Bride!

You're probably the type of girl who never considered getting married - until you met *him*
You're not a big fan of white dresses, church weddings, or cheesy DJ's
That's okay - you'll do it your way... whether that means a Vegas wedding or guys as bridesmen
While you may not toss the bouquet (or have anyone to toss it to), it will still be the most romantic day of your life!

What Kind of Bride Will You Be?

Yeah, I'm pretty traditional at times, but weddings have been blown out of the waters by overrated asses who just want you to spend money. The day is pathetic. No, bridezillas, it's not "your day". Idiots. It's you AND your new husband's day. It's not an excuse for you to spend THAT MUCH money on an idiotic party on a marriage you think is about you. Unless you want divorce in the first year. ARG! Weddings are the beginning of years of hardship together. It should be quiet, private, and about how two people feel strongly enough for each other for it to actually last. Where is the feeling in a 100,000+ dollar wedding outside of selfish bratty behaviors gone wrong? And a woman only needs a bridesmaid or two if she has VERY close girlfriends or family. Wedding's that are huge is for everyone else except the couple because it's so damn blown out of the waters and it's just one huge ass party if you ask me where people get drunk and give you gifts, lament on their single status or ask their significant other "why not us?" and where married couples remember the old days and maybe mock new couples on what they don't know... I just get really cynical about these big ass weddings, seriously. It's not about feelings or commitment or shit, it's just people throwing money away on nothing. When you start something this sacred and important with no appreciation of its value, good luck. I predict divorce, and the statistics are on my side.

I hate those bridezilla shows. Gives bad names to good women and demolishes a sacred bond like nothing else. No wonder the guys are so terrified of the alter! I would be too if that was MY concept of it. GIR!

And if anyone's seen Blood Diamonds... yeah. The rock needs to go (even though it's my birthstone - sigh) But lives! LIVES!!! So, seriously, if you spend that much money, why not consider charity? Or future children's education? I mean. HELLO! House? Future? No? Not going to be unselfish and reasonable?!

(And I asked my South African friend who wants to work in the UN. The stuff in the movie was pretty accurate of what is occuring right now in West Africa. That is really, really sad.)

Hehehe... random rant.

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back.
You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

How Feminine Are You?

(found these quizzes heavenly_pearl was doing >D)

Enemies Stand No Chance Against MY Ultimate Weapon! Your Armpits Of Fire & Bad BO Are DOOMED, Hades!

2007-07-12T01:03:23Z

Yes! I have FINALLY gotten my Ultimate Weapon! And now I have also gotten Donald his ultimate weapon: Save the Queen! Next time, I just have to beat the timer to get Goofy his. And the best part is, if I just rig the end with a restart, I can totally do it... well... as long as I get to the end before the time is up. But I'm on Level 84! That should be cake! (Right?)

We'll see, tomorrow.

After that, it's off to kill the Phantom. teh_maskmaid I don't know how you got to that level and managed to face Sephiroth without the Ultimate Weapon, but you must be really GOOD to have done it! I am in awe. (I just am good at whacking, not the strategy part....) Did you get Donald and Goofy their ultimates at least? It's a lot easier than Sora's. Bah. But good news is, in the long ass process to get the Ultimate Weapon, I finally learned how to hit the Rare Truffles, thought I've only reached 19 hits as the max, I think. Maybe like 20. But 50 is the next goal... if I ever get to it...

Truthfully, Lionheart looks like a pretty key than either Oathbreaker or the Ultimate Weapon, even if they're more powerful...

But...

I got the Ultimate Weapon!!!!!

wiggles her butt around and does a little dance

CHIYA!!!!

Okay, now onto the easier stuff ^_^v

BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

And Phew! Hades! Did the fire have to come out of your armpits? I mean, seriously!!!

Onto the next challenge, matey!

poses

And as an end note, Darker than Black is very gory in comparison to most other anime I'm watching... but it's the field-of-plot-bunnies and a fanfiction writer's dream! If you like psychoanalysing your ~~victims~~ characters. Ah, the angst and the drama and the pyschoticness of it all!

is in love

Though, there are better anime out there right now. But this is my writing dreamworld... at least for now. Bah! To those idiots who complains that the main characters are still so damn mysterious after 10 episodes. Fools! Have no sense of imagination running wild.

And can I just say that Hei, if he had white hair that stood up and wore a mask, he'd be like Kakashi...

God...

They're both so damn hot!

Except Hei is a main character and Kakashi is not. Like one character said in Darker, "[Hei] has a very nice ass!"

Fangirl squeeing ensues

Mystery Goo Deserves To Shove It's Mystery Elsewhere Munny Should Be Able To Buy Everything!

2007-07-06T21:22:42Z

Glares at Kingdom Hearts

GWAH!!!

After struggling for three days to finally get Sora to make all the stupid synesthised shit, I finally unlock his Ultimate Weapon. Seriously, me and the Mushrooms are not friends. I'd rather bash in demon heads than figure out what spells to use (that's the easiest), how to land a freakin' critical hit without throwing something at it (that's the harder), and how to keep the stupid blue ones from staying in the air (that's the hardest). After three straight hours of trying to get one Mystery Goo to make that stupid bracelet, I breathe a sigh of relief. There, finally, with more Gale in my inventory than I ever had need of it, I go to see what is needed for the Ultimate Weapon because I'm pretty sure by now I've fought all the damn monsters there are to fight, like, ~~at least~~ a hundred times to get all the damn items I needed to synthesize. And I do have everything.

Except three Mystery Goo.

chuck the controller across the room

Damn you! Why must it be the Mushrooms, of all things?!

Day dreams about eating mushrooms for dinner to be spiteful

GIR!!!

(And why the hell do I have so much Munny if I can't even buy one freakin' Goo?! ARG!!!)

mythopoet_blue @ 2007-06-25T18:22:00

2007-06-26T00:29:29Z

Let's start with the good news. As you may have noticed, my hiatus wasn't really a hiatus. Reason being that when I was planning my move I really thought that when my parents talked about living in the mountains, they meant living in the mountains. Like. No internet, living in the mountains, except in a blue-moon, or when I jump off the mountain from deprivation.

But, it turns out that not only do we HAVE internet, it's faster here! BWHAHAHAHAHA! Which some of you might notice account for all my crazy anime watching sched.

Bad news is now I'm studying for the GRE. BAH. And looking for a job. And applying for schools.

But, yeah, to internet!!!

And yes, I've moved a lot my writing site to bjfactory. Not any old writing's been moved over yet, due mostly to the fact that I am finishing up last year's January. I'm doing a whole time-line for the Silver Millennium following what's hinted in Nothing is ever so pure... and what's already been written in Rituals, A lesson on being Senshi..., and Happiness in an instance, not yet gone. I've already written a new piece called Forgive but not forget and it'll soon be followed by others but none of it is up yet since I'm posting all the relevant pieces up together, or at least when I'm satisified I've gotten most of them in order.

But yeah, I'm like, not really gone...

There was the two and a half day on the bus I was on just to get to the mountains too. And I like, met and flirted with a cute, younger guy. That was fun.

^_^v

And like, THE MOUNTAINS!

Going on hiatus

2007-04-17T04:04:33Z

I'm going to be going on hiatus for a bit, not just writing wise but in general when it comes to certain things on the internet. Personal things that's been brewing for years has finally gotten overboard and now I need to focus on extremely important things that I've put on the back burner because, well, I hadn't want to deal with it.

I will still answer emails and such, so if you need to get in touch with me about anything feel free to. I just can't promise when I'll find the time to reply, but I will try to do it in the week that the message is sent.

Currently, I'm not really in the mood to write anything and I don't have the time to spare for it. Since there's really no obligations right now for me to attend to that will stop me from disappearing for awhile, I hope all you guys good luck. Thanks so much for all the support these years. And don't worry, I'm not dead. I just need to get a few very important things in order.

Thank you for everything else and sticking with me for all these years. Wow! Years! Despite being exceptionally fickle about a lot of things, in general, forgive me for all the things I promised to do and didn't get around to.

(And remember, not dead. Just not around, very often. We'll see how long this lasts.)

blue

Internet connections suck!

2007-03-27T03:43:44Z

Yup, that's right. Internet went down about Saturday/Sunday. Which made actually submitting votes for sm_monthly a lot more difficult than it should have been. Not only that, but power went out while I was in the middle of copy-pasting my votes... which uh... mean my UNSAVED stories picked out went "bye-bye!" If Kihin doesn't mind, I'd like to do submit it tomorrow... once I find all the stupid damn links to the stories I've picked... if I remember where they were ;_;

I'm SORRY!

Good news is I'm finishing up an old ToS fic. More like, I'm revising it and then finishing it. It has some of the best characterizations I've ever written. But, of course, unlike anime, I've spent over 200hrs playing those damn characters, so I better have a good grasp of who they are. But now that I've finished quite a bit more of the side-quests, the story HAD to change. It just wasn't canon if it didn't.

*sigh*

Other than that, there's an SM side-project that just got kicked into gear. And yeah! Chaos finished Angel Electric at last and now we have this fabulous end-of-Silver Millennium floating about. :D Though, I have to say, sm_monthly members have written some fabulous SM drabbles about the Silver Millennium (Starsea, I'm looking at you, though Star-chan is not the ONLY fabulous writer who has added to the brilliance of that era...coughKihincough). Anyway, there's a LOT of really good authors and maybe I should go put some more of my drabbles on dotmoon, instead of lazying about with it only on my lj. Well, whatever.

*hugs her internet*

Welcome back!

Oh, and I saw 300 like a week ago. It ROCKED!

And my birthday's next weekend. That's right. Easter Sunday ^_^v Irony of ironies, I'm really not religious.

LOL!

^_^v

I have a good feeling about this year!

Theme 21: Quote

2007-03-06T23:48:46Z

Title: Seeking Comfort
Author: mythopoet_blue
Theme: sm_monthly's February Helios/Setsuna: Quote
Genre: Adult/Drama
Version: AniManga
Rating: R

"Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within." -- James Baldwin

She traces his features with knowing hands. It is the first time she had seen him sleep, and already he was waking. It has taken them over more than a few thousand years to reach this place. Despite the comings and goings of those precious to their hearts, despite the constant waiting and anticipation to see if the rebirth - the return - would appear before their weary hearts - small, false hopes - they were both here.

Now.

His eyes fluttered open and he stared up to her face, a hazy gaze of those just waking and used to peace. It was a wonder that they had known each other so long, or at least the existence of one another. They had both seen civilizations rise and fall, darkness triumph over light and light triumph over darkness. They had fought on the same side for such a long time that she wondered how long the journey of knowing someone could take if it took this long for them to find comfort in someone who had been there all along.

Perhaps, they were both rather blind to such things, him who was accustomed only to dreams and she to reality.

"Will you leave me?" she had wondered and he had echoed that fear with the hesitant touch of hands against her cheek. The trail of unschooled fingers, tender and clumsy, along the line of her neck as he blinked back the hold of sleep as it clung to him tenaciously. The softness of his kiss, asking and requesting little in return when he had pulled her down to meet his lips. Giving was what they were used to, the two of them. The act of trying to create what they desired and what duty dictated to them with all that they had, only to see what they built turn to dust before them, was also something that they were used to.

The curse of the immortal in a mortal world, he had described to her once with more sadness than bitterness. Ah, how the gods must be weary of it all. No wonder, in all that was written, the immortal beings never lived where the mortals tread.

It had been a rather foolish question when she had given voice to that small, fear-filled voice inside her. The part of her that had never liked loneliness and would choose to withstand the pain of separation for just another’s solid touch, warm and alive, surged to life within her. Beyond the Gates of Time, those thousand doors of possibilities, she knew the history of all mortal things. But she had not been a mortal for a very long time and her separation from it made the longing ache all the more.

All things changed, no matter how sweet or how wrong or how painful, no moment lasted forever.

Yet, here and now, as she lay naked before him with the uncertainties that made her both a child and a woman and a god, she smiled. It had been a long time since she had looked a man in the face and spoke of the fears that made her Meiou Setsuna (or whatever name she chose to bear), and not just Sailor Pluto. It had been a long time since she had touched the features of another, knowing they understood the things she had to cast aside for the happiness of others and the promised future, and that sometimes these sacrifices were as futile as they sounded, hollowed by time and destiny. It was, in the end, a greater relief to know the other was as naked as herself.

"I cannot make promises," he answered, pale hands reaching up and covering hers as she pulled back. His pale skin lay warm against her hands and her dark tresses curtained them in intimacy, a contrast of dark and light. "Will it be enough?" he countered her inquiry with his own question, his vulnerability and his uncertainty. In the world of dreams, peace ever-lasting and immeasurable joys, all things remained insubstantial and more fleeting than reality in its constant pleasantness. There lay a ruthless type of promise without sorrow, but its watcher knew sorrow lay as ruthlessly beyond his gates as any would who had lived as long as he did. So, in this gardened sanctuary, he prayed for those who must face what lay beyond the gates he guarded.

"It will never," she answered honestly in return, teeth catching his lips. His breath caught between pleasure and pain, that difficult balance before sleep and waking, all that he wanted and nothing he could keep.

She did not hesitate this time, not like the first time she went to him and him to her. Hot mouth found his, urgent and equally honest, this time conveying all the things she had not the courage to utter, even in intimate whispers, or the words to express. Her fingers tangled in his snow-colored hair and he returned the favor by spreading his hand along the back of her long neck and pulling her closer with a startling force.

This moment will pass, she thought. Tenderness can easily be turned into bitterness, love can be burned into the ashes of hate, and happiness now can be the seed of tomorrow's sorrow. But in these small moments, stolen between time and dreams, the danger was worth the gain. The small touch of a dying heat, a flame too bright to last forever, could be savored all the more for its inability to survive the tests of time and the borders between his world and her own. But then again, she was Sailor Pluto, and he was the Priest of Elysion, they were not looking for forever. Hot hands against hot skin, tangled limbs in a white paradise, this was a safe harbor from the abandonment of the world that separated him from her and vice-versa.

Its briefness was what made it all the more beautiful in the memories that would follow.

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Seeking Comfort by blue (Day 21: Quote)

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Theme 7: Lyrical

2007-03-06T23:36:30Z

Title: In the labyrinth of dreams, he waits
Author: mythopoet_blue
Theme: sm_monthly's February Helios/Setsuna: Lyrical
Genre: Angst/Drama
Version: Anime/Manga
Rating: PG-13

I've waited, and given the chance again,
I'd do it all the same, but either way
I'm always outplayed, up on your down days
I left it the right way, to start again

Some days are easier than others, Helios reflects. The dreams are catacombs, pale pathways that leads him through countless worlds and lives and imaginations. He loses himself in these foreign lands of mermaids and angels, glass swans and stone lions. He would follow the wondering, invisible foot-steps of children and pure-hearted dreamers for days on end, only to lose himself just as easily along the way, to places too wondrous to describe. He would find himself briefly flittering through their worlds as they briefly flickered - and then faded - from his own. It was what he wanted, for as much as dreams changed and the people who dreamed them changed, he and Elysian changed very little.

This way he would not wonder what he had forgotten and left behind in that other life he could once have chosen.

The water was warm against his calves as he rolled up his pants a little higher. The afternoon air was cool and he could not help but sigh in leisure. Why did he remember now that he would rather not remember at all?

Her slender fingers rested in his hands, a fluttering of fragile bones. Her dark skin and gypsy eyes, laughed into his as she leaned forward a little in her youth and curiosity. "I do not need to be rescued, White Prince." He had been confused by her words then, for he was neither prince nor rescuer of young girls who were clearly not in distress. It had not been the first time she had said it to him, catching him in the shadows of her dreams. Yet, he wished he could have responded differently then, did not reach across the boundaries of reality and dreams to cast forward destiny at a child too young to understand what she had reached to take. He wished for many things differently. With all the time in the world to regret, even precious things can turn into burdens, jewels becoming rocks, riches becoming dust.

Time would destroy all the things it had once created and she knew that better than anyone. It pained him to look at her now, strong and beautiful and yet, so different and so very lost and alone. Whenever he studied her, he felt as if he were only looking at a reflection of himself.

Yet, he had never thought he would meet one so like himself and yet so different. Despite being the older and longer lived, he felt young whenever he was in her presence. Even in his eyes, she seemed other-worldly. It was as if the wisdom and knowledge of all things reflected in those eyes that had seen everything there ever was to see. When he looked at her and weighed her sorrow in his hands, it made him glad that fate had been kind enough to allow them to meet. Even if he remembered a time when she had not been so sad or so knowing, when they had been on two different worlds that hardly ever intersected, it was still a memory fading into obscurity. It did not give him comfort, knowing her origins when she had been reborn into paradise.

"Did you wait long?" Dark legs dipped into the waters next to him, bringing him out of his thoughts.

"No," he said with a smile and turned to watch her sit, not at all surprised at her sudden appearance. "I am accustomed to waiting."

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In the labyrinth of dreams, he waits by blue (Day 7: Lyrical)

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